Can You hear me now?

Dear God, I know You have been knocking at my heart for quite some time now. I feel like no matter what I do, my heart can’t open up enough to let Your love in. I know each day is a gift, and another chance to accept Your love but I just feel so broken lately, like no matter what I do it’s never good enough. I feel this way with my job, my relationship, my family.. I just can’t get it right. That’s why I cry out to You when we are worshipping You in church, and I feel 100 times better, but I just lose everything once again.

I’ve been having a battle within with a certain person in my life, we have never been on good terms and we’ve never “met”. She has hurt someone that I love very much and I’m having the hardest time forgiving her. I know I have no right to judge and I should always forgive, but God it’s so hard. Every time I think I’m over it, it creeps back into my life and brings me down again. Why should I let this hurt me, when it’s never bothered me before I knew this person? How can someone hurt someone so bad? I just ask Your forgiveness in my daily battle and struggles with this person, and getting “over” what has happened. Forgiveness is more powerful than retaliation; Lord, please guide me through this and help me overcome it.