Dear God, 

I can’t deny any longer what I’m doing. I’m in love, God. I can’t fake it anymore. But I don’t know what to do. I’m afraid that the same thing will happen as the last time…I am so afraid, God, more than almost anything else, that you will take this beautiful thing away from me. Maybe I am being selfish…but please, don’t do that again. I am helpless, God. Sometimes I feel like I should move forward with this, and sometimes I feel like you’re telling me to ignore it and run away. But I can’t sit in the middle for much longer. 

The foremost thing I ask of You is to please show him Your face. He needs it, God…regardless of me. Show him Your loving Son, and how valuable he is to You. 

If you did…I think I could maybe make a decision. I hope you’ll help me with that, too.